And so it begins again!.........

Well i guess i'm a little behind in greeting the new year....but then i always say....better late than never......the story of my life sadly!.................i've been away for some time now..........the two month sabbatical, which i'm afraid was no more of a sabbatical than climbing the Everest.......(i hear its difficult bordering on impossible!).........took more time than i had.........but i'm back and unscathed and quite frankly, relieved to be back in a groove that suits me the most............i'm not relaxed though..........there seems to be this ever surmounting need to get moving with my life and that scares me........the new year only seems to remind me of a year past with not much gained..................oh and i might have failed to mention the rising cynicism in my thoughts...........its not that difficult actually.......these days you call a spade a spade and you become a cynic........well I've had it with all the sugar coating that's going on!...........people!!....... realize that things are only going to get worse from here on............hate to be the doomsayer...........but the economy is crumbling.............we seem to be very engrossed in the task of destroying what's probably the only place for us to live on..........(apparently NASA hasn't had any luck yet!)........the killing and hatred seems a never ending cycle...............and this is me being cheerful!...............and well it doesn't make me all that proud to be a part of it all...............the growing greed.......the hatred.........the violence......... the poverty and what not!............

they say change begins within oneself..................with the realization that you being an integral part of a very intricate network of lives bound together have as much responsibility to change for the better as the next and that is how i wish to greet the new year......with a silent though not so subtle wish and hope.......... nay......... rather a strong determination to change for the better............before its too late!

breAk!

on a much needed sabbatical guys.....see ya around in two months!.....adieu!

Hmmmmmmmmm…………

I’m nuts about chocolate…………..but then who isn’t?........the thing is……… I’m on this self imposed mission to tone down and things don’t seem to be going my way!.......I am an addict to all tempting delicacies that have even the slightest ounce of sugar or sweetness in them……….and my 2 month plan to slim down is turning out to be more on the lines of a two year plan and even that’s, me, being over-optimistic!…………but the very sight of those delicious and watery treats of pure magical conception has me spell bound and I lose control over the very thin and weak leash on my will!..............who in their right mind could pass over a very savory and chunky piece of absolute heaven………..and now when I do think things over maybe it isn’t a very big loss………those moments of pure pleasure………………hmmmmmmmmmm………….they are worth gaining a few pounds……….though I do wish they wouldn’t gather around what is undoubtedly a fast growing pouch!......

Smart People..............

Well its not a title I selected I’m afraid………I borrowed it from this film that made an impression on me…….simply because it seemed to define quite accurately actually, all that I seem to be facing in my life well not literally but the idea seems pretty accurate …………..the film, of course surrounds a family, mainly the father, a widower seemingly stuck in an endless and vicious cycle of life that ultimately does nothing for his life but suck all happiness out of it……..its about how life no longer seems to hold anything for you, and you no longer derive happiness from all that you do……….your job, the ones you love, your life basically, and everything just seems to be pulling you into this abyss of despair and depression ……….the fact is, I found myself pondering over whether that was the case in my life too………….Am I stuck in this rut that I can’t seem to overcome?…………It seems my life no longer holds any happiness………..am I so far gone that I can’t seem to see the happiness that stares me right in my face…………parents who love me, siblings who love and adore me to death, and friends, the best one could hope for!....................So why smart people?……..eventually the father sees a light at the end of the tunnel…………a series of events turn his life around and he finally gains control over his life and not just him but all the people in his life as well…….they overcome their moments of absolute depression and find that they are better, smarter, for having done that!.........they learn to look beyond their own prejudices, egos………..they learn to pause and think things over……….and ultimately they find happiness in everything they do……………and that’s why sometimes movies hold a dear place in my heart……for what I seem to learn from them……….I might not always implement all that I see and understand…….but for those very few moments ,they give me hope…………And If I’m smart I’ll look beyond this mist that hangs over my life………….for smart people always, always triumph over all that comes in their path………..with a little help of course!

A lost art?!

I’m sick and tired of how people keep telling me that chivalry, and manners for that matter, seem a lost art among the younger generation………..I find that utterly and comprehensibly wrong…………..from what I see every day as I travel by, the most common means of transportation there is, the bus…..I find signs that chivalry, is in fact very much alive in the hearts of the young………….almost in every instant when they see someone more elderly, most youngsters never hesitate to give up their seats graciously without ever being asked to…………..that is the case also when they see a lady standing or a handicapped person or when they see a mother sweating it out, trying to balance herself with a child in hand…………..so who says chivalry is a lost art among the young?..........I find that insulting…..well maybe not so very, but it get me a little uptight being of the same “decadent” generation………….but the signs, the little things, they give me hope and in a certain sense, pride!

The constant struggle...........

For those of you with the beautiful flow of hair, under a perfect leash, on your head, this might be a little hard stomach….but then it might not be!.....I guess everyone has a bad hair day…….so imagine one of those days when your hair seems to have a mind of its own, and now imagine having that day play over and over in your life……that pretty much defines my constant struggle to get my hair in line!..........I have people coming over and searching for small things that might have been “misplaced” in the forest that spreads over my head….well, maybe that’s taking it a little over the top, but I have had people coming over and commenting on how easy it would be to get lost in that mess, that I call my hair!............and of course I’m the constant target for “hair” jokes, me and a friend who I’m afraid is the exact paradox of my situation!.........he has no hair to worry about, well not much anyway!.........well an easy way out would be to shave the whole thing off, but hey I’ve still to embrace Ahimsa and go on a path to peace…….no thank you!........ I like having some hair on my head, however bad it might seem………….but I’ll be the first to admit that there are some days, when I do wish my hair was not very temperamental…………but again the fact is my hair has become a part of my identity and there’s no running away from ones true identity, is there?..............so these days, I while my time away changing the way my hair might shape out….and though my friends say they haven’t really seen much of a difference……I’m always the optimist!

Music !

Nothing gets me moving more than music.................And I'm probably not the only one influenced in such a strong way.....in fact in all probability almost everyone, be it as a part of a song or otherwise has been affected in no small a manner.........Can I possibly explain how music truly inspires me?.......maybe not............but I can try.......I guess for me (to each his own)..........something soothing in perfect harmony and symphony affects me the most...... it calms me and my otherwise very turbulent mind......And since I pretty much occupy all my free time either reading, watching TV or movies.......for me, music comes in when I travel..........when I'm in a bus, I prefer the window seat and sitting there, that window becomes a magic mirror into the world outside and the music becomes the perfect background score...........in fact I become so oblivious to whats happening around me that often i have traveled a couple of stops beyond where I was supposed to have gotten off, but that only gives me an excuse to walk back at the slowest pace......being in God's own country has its advantages........nature only enhances these truly heavenly moments......of course since I live in a relatively small town village.........walking around with earphones is almost like being an alien on earth.........and if it weren't for the fact that I'm completely taken by this exercise......I'd be mortified to have every pair of eyes drilling a hole at the back of my head!.......but the experience is what keeps me going, when I'm truly bogged down and depressed by everything that happens around me and in my life...........I wouldn't trade these moments for anything......for often Ive never felt more one with nature and God..........so if you do see a nut smiling, listening to music, somewhere, with his head out, without a care in the world.....who knows.....it could be me....... or one among all the millions who are no doubt taken by how magical music can be!